Plan B

Gee. All day I have been brainstorming on a Plan B since this Paris plan is feeling very very uncertain all of a sudden.

Among the other choices in the still blurry clouds of ideas:

Management Trainee in USA

Work in Pilipinas

Further Studies...

This one I chose...

Career Plan B : Work on a Cruise ship

Seems like the almost perfect plan B since it is...

Something that will allow me to travel the world, again be submerged in the cultural diversity of the world, and of course, see the multifaceted situations that other people are in to. A 10 month contract would be enough for an appetizer, if it seems that I will enjoy, then I'll go for another bite.

All day I have been researching on what to expect, if it would be fit for me, and if I will still be alive after. Well, I'll be stuck in a cruise ship for ten months... and at the end of the day, I realized that I just need to bring a small netbook computer and I will be fine.

There will be no downside, mishaps will all be in the mind, and prayers and brains will be what I'd need to pack in my luggage for this. Working 10 hours a day, 7 days a week for 10 months.

With regards to the social circle and professional relations I will be having, and also considering that this will be culturally diverse, I can play Mr. Diplomatic and Mr. Tactfulness. Proven effective in my school and work back then in Switzerland.

Things makes sense now why I met in Switzerland this friend from Indonesia... who knew it'll be him who will give me tips on this. He'll be starting his work in AIDA cruises in a couple of months. And it does make more sense why I was on a cruise last year, so I have tons of ideas how the work will seem to be. *Crossing fingers now*

The pay is pretty okay. But aside from the datung, the benefits will not be limited to what the eyes can see and what the hands can hold...

I have been eyeing this...

Shangri-la at the Fort by 2014

If all plans go well (plans according to my current wavelength of thinking on a hot 37 degree afternoon, and if by then I'd consider settling already in Manila at the age of 26 or 27), I'd be one of the best suited candidates to work there by that time. And also considering that there's a condominium 5 minute walk away where I can live on my own, its going to be great.

As far as I can analyze the bits and pieces of this... This plan sounds good, but still I'm open to what better things life will offer me.

If it's not difficult, it is not funny. There are just things that happens in our life and for a period of time we don't understand why, but in the right time... we'll understand everything.

Life will be very very sweet. Life is good. Awesome.

Trying not to get too excited now.

Who knows... in a few weeks then I might think of a Plan C. LOL.

And I still need to give the French Consul some rubbin' n' lovin' next week.

Egg Lovin

It was another Saturday night spent in my room alone, alone with my friend… my BFF.

It struck me that I have been very much alone lately, alone in my room, for a lot of times, with my computer turned on. I have put all my eggs in a basket… All my trust to a friend… and the moment life made its move, it moved us apart… and I can define it right now that technology is not cutting it anymore.

“Holala BFF !… miss na kita... uwi ka na”

Oh last night, it made realize how I damned missed him very much… Oh the things I would do for us to spend a wee Saturday night on a wendy’s, jollibee or a fastfood somewhere and make the night fun. Telling him to go home when gee, I do know for a fact that indeed he cannot for legit reasons. And enjoy life over a simple meal... and the adventures that came after. LOL

The conversations that we plan to be in the future… the future executives, leaders of society, filthy rich, packed with success, oozing with power at our own rights, and of course the hunky hunky super hunky beau guys that we will be… and then we will go to an Atlantis event where I’ll be the actor and he will hold the camera. Hahaha.

ohh the visions we envisioned.

The people of interests we talk about and how to pursue them. Coincidences about the people we met and how it proved that indeed, it’s a small world after all. Oh the guys we talked about, gee… the long list of the guys we talked about… Gee… Just when I see a guy and he tells me ahead that he dated/talked/communicated with that guy before now he tells me that what I should know. Hahaha. He was always 10 steps ahead of me in this category.

Oh the full hour we spent talking just about the fabulousity and genius that was Alexander McQueen and Lady Gaga over a serving of Nachos in a food court, and how we tried to dance Bad Romance over there as if the place became the Bath Haus of Gaga.

How I appreciated the pleasure of someone talking direct to my face on what I am becoming… someone to tell me without hesitation that I’m becoming mayabang, someone to tell me na “nagiging emo ka na masyado to the point na nakakainis ka na, bye”, someone to give me an idea of the ideal date, and how he will make contra to those who I am engaging with by giving me an honest and different angle at situations I put myself into.

Someone who was my mirror to make me see what needs some grooming.

Fair enough, last September we decided to meet up in Barcelona for a grand BFF meetup and para maghasik ng kabalahuraan at kabalasubasan (as we say it sometimes) hahaha, so I booked up tickets and apartments to stay and made it extra long… well, fair enough that I wasn’t disappointed at all that he wasn’t able to show up.

Having him not around taught me how to become my own best friend, me functioning the functions of someone who would be my own true friend. But well, the burger just doesn’t seem to have that same juicy savory taste. And geeee…

If I were the Little Prince who searched all over the universe for the right kind of sheep, visited each planet he stumbled upon on, then right now I’d smile having the feeling of finding the right kind… but feel uneasy with the idea that well… he ain’t here !

All my eggs in a basket, now that I’m aware of it… restrategize, as we would say… I think I should spread some egg lovin. Holala!

Eat Well

Jogging yesterday at high street felt extraordinarily good, it just gave me that refreshing mood to turn things awesome. I really do not have a full idea how much I've ran, but I am betting at least 7 or 8 turns around high street until at around 715pm, the rain washed us runners away. I was running quite fast yesterday. Awesome, and the better part is though I was really thirsty, I just kept on running fast with a smile. LOL

After some great running, with a sore body, dinner was next in the list. Now, after I came back from Europe, I somehow lost that sense to have a craving for a particular food, or uhm... lost that drive to go resto hunting, one of my side time hobby during college. So I just thought, if the food is clean, well prepared and tasty... it is good already for me and I'm enjoying.

Somehow I didn't realize that I have been eating at this Chinese restaurant at the fort so many times recently... and it was only last night that I realized, geeze I really like this restaurant. Okay, so I won't say by words that Oh I like this restaurant, I would say that after I just uncontrollably get attracted to eat there.

Eat Well! Delicious Kitchen

Unit C, Ground Floor, Net Quad Building,

30th-31st St., Bonifacio Global City, Taguig

Every single time... Their awesome Pork & Shrimp Siomai for starters....

Next, their Yang Chow fried rice never fails to satisfy me, paired with really tasty Beef & Brocolli, and Bean Curd with Asparagus. For basics enough for two, I really really find these are awesome already, enough to satisfy the stomach and the heart.

Masachi Balls for desert.

And plus, I appreciate the manager helping the team of servers... and by the way he was serving us customer's last night, I can sense details of his workmanship that indeed he was working very very well.

And of course food that, in between my bites, will make me say Yes, this is good food, Goooooood. Mmm...

So among the restaurants here that I've eaten here in Manila, I'll name this place as not only my preferred Chinese restaurant, but my favorite restaurant to dine in Manila. Well, so far.

Great. Everything was great, and even if that rain seemed to have stopped the running, mmm....

Indeed, don't try this if you don't want to get addicted.

Speechless

Last night we were alone, I woke up the following day, turned on my computer beside my bed and wandered... Until I found myself looking for this song... and had it played over and over again... and went on to bed again and stared all morning at a blank wall.........................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

speechless. Silly that again, I woke up this morning with this in my mind.

I can’t believe what you said to me

Last night when we were alone

You threw your hands up

Baby you gave up, you gave up

I can’t believe how you looked at me

With your James Dean glossy eyes

In your tight jeans with your long hair

And your cigarette stained lies

Could we fix you if you broke?

And is your punch line just a joke?

I’ll never talk again

Oh boy you’ve left me speechless

You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

I can’t believe how you slurred at me

With your half wired broken jaw

You popped my heart seams

On my bubble dreams, bubble dreams

I can’t believe how you looked at me

With your Johnnie Walker eyes

He’s gonna get you and after he’s through

There’s gonna be no love left to rye

And I know that it’s complicated

But I’m a loser in love

So baby raise a glass to mend

All the broken hearts

Of all my wrecked up friends

I’ll never talk again

Oh boy you’ve left me speechless

You’ve left me speechless so speechless

I’ll never love again,

Oh friend you’ve left me speechless

You’ve left me speechless, so speechless

Hooow?

Haaaa-oooo-wow?

H-ooow?

Wow

Haaaa-oooo-wow?

H-ooow?

Wow

And after all the drinks and bars that we’ve been to

Would you give it all up?

Could I give it all up for you?

And after all the boys and girls that we’ve been through

Would you give it all up?

Could you give it all up?

If I promise to you boy

That I’ll never talk again

And I’ll never love again

I’ll never write a song

Won’t even sing along

I’ll never love again

So speechless

You left me speechless, so speechless

Why you so speechless, so speechless?

Will you ever talk again?

Oh boy, why you so speechless?

You’ve left me speechless

Some men may follow me

But you choose “death and company”

Why you so speechless? Oh oh oh

Too much temper

I have noticed and I am aware, that I am too masungit lately.

My sister even told me last night... that I am matalino, masipag, charismatic, ma... , ma..., ma... you're almost perfect pero masyado kang masungit.

Well, I said, yes I am and I know I am. And perfection is close to being dead.

Well, its a very silly response, so now I realize.

Being masungit is fine, I don't mind people being masungit. I mean, temper (among other emotions) are usual feelings we people have. Much like how I find happiness and joy useful to attracting people and making them feel welcome and appreciated, I also find the usefulness of temper to ward off people and make that idea not to step on my nerves.

Much like yesterday when the consul in the French embassy... When she was making me wait for more than three hours, I seated myself in front of her window... and stared at her for a full minute until she notices me and until I see her holding my papers and not other people's... the stare like I wanted to pull out her eyeballs and look at her hanggang magsara lahat ng butas sa katawan nya.

So you see, temper serves a purpose, of course the way of execution is critical and will of course require a generous serving of brain. But too much temper is something I'm rather not very feeling comfortable with.

Pretty much everything is fueled by the way the recent events in my life had been unfolding. Well yes, as far as my reflection goes, that's where I point the blaming arrow.

It is the subconscious thinking translating into conscious actions taking effect.

Usually, I just over eat, I find comfort from food when I just feel down. But then when I realized this, I managed to overcome this and the overeating died but now I realized... the problem did not. Now the problem just changed from over eating to being over masungit. Still the root problem, as pointed by the blaming arrow, still exists.

The solution would be to face the issue, solve the root problem.

I'm not planning to be the Mr. Too Friendly, but not also planning to be Mr. Too Much Temper.

I'm just trying to be a good boy, making the most to be aware of his actions and feelings, I take hold of my emotions and not the other way. This is the way we should be right?

1 - 20

Tips that I have received and learned for the past few months. Thing is, I keep on forgetting most of them and constantly, I need to be reminded.

I have been receiving coaching and guidance from a very incredible person and was dubbed once by my mom as "Super Woman". These are things I'm trying my best to learn by heart and keeping my mind and soul open as to allow these thought and ideas to consume me and allowing these to mold my personality. Well of course I turn these off once in a while, of course to loosen up and breathe as well... for that casual and laid back side of living. We all deserve to take a break and switch to that kooky-er person during some days...

Well, some of them I pick up somewhere else when I stop and stare...

Ohhh my rules... welcome to my self made pocketbook of rules... we'll not really rules, just some tips... Punishment awaits those who break rules, well these... hmm...

1. Think right, but think FAST.

2. When you meet somebody you don't know, you have to judge him/her in less than two minutes.

- look in the eyes of people and read what is there to read

3. You have to convince people that what you think is the best for them.

4. Be the DOMINANT among a group.

5. Never try to act like other people, you have to be the chief, and show that by intelligent remarks or acts.

6. Always learn learn learn work work work on any subject.

7. Always think positive & take the good in any situation.

8. Think of two good results, so if you don't get the first one, you will have the second, which maybe even better.

9. Don't lie. If somebody is asking you a question which you do not want to answer, just say that it's not their problem or anything else intelligent. So it will show people that you have some temper and they do not have to walk on your feet.

10. When you have something to do: Don't say I will do it later, just do it at the second, so you will be ready for something else right away.

11. Practice your memory all the time, and just think that its like a box, when its full, its full. Remove what you do not really need.

12. You have to surprise people all the time, by your intelligence, memory, anything, you always have to be the first one in any case.

13. There are no downsides in my life, for myself, I am surrounded by very creative and wonderful people, and no matter what you do in your life, don't you ever let anybody take your creative and wonderful people away from you. And what my creative and wonderful people tell me is this..

14. Only value the opinion of those that you respect,

and those anyone that you don't respect....

pay no mind to their opinion about you or anything else.

Hmm... Negotiable, consider entertaining the idea under certain exceptions

Two stories my mom tells me...

15. Once upon a time, Buddha was sitting under a tree, alone, meditating and simply having a peaceful time. And then, someone came over his tranquil place to intentionally bother him from... so this guy made moves to distract and anger Buddha from his solemn abode.

But Buddha did not react, not a single flinch... the guy who tried so hard, just became tired and angered by the way things came up...

So the guy asked Buddha why he didn't react at all, and he responded something like....

Imagine the intention and energy you are trying to give me as a gift or an object... If I had let myself accept that, I will be the one being angry.

But since I prefer to control what enters my life, I will chose to not accept this.... If I had accepted this bad energy, I will be the one being angry and you will be happy... But since I did not, I kept my tranquility and happiness, and you kept the negativity that you wanted to make feel.

The guy just became angry, Buddha went on peacefully.

16. So imagine you are in a group who is doing something bad just to get what they want, so that does mean you should join them along because you are alone?

No. It doesn't mean that everyone else is doing it, doesn't mean you should do it. Hayaan mo na lang lahat sila gawin yun, be bold enough to be different as long as you know what you are doing is correct and proper.

17. Don't look to the approval of others for your mental stability.

- Karl Lagerfeld's Twitter

True when I find my ideas and intellects blocked by imaginary or real opinions from people around me.. Its me, in the end, its what I want to do and think, etcetera...

Though my future boss has said to me a few things about Karl Lagerfeld, I see a bright side of him which I know I can look up to. Especially when my mom told me once...

18. Kelangan Joey, you know how to step back, see and learn how to separate the sin and the person,

para you can understand more...

19.

Brain

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Heart

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Stomach

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Dick/Vagina

20. If circumstances allow other parties to identify points that disqualify you, response with a statement that addresses issues that had been identified and be the first to address other issues before the other party sees it. And finish this off with a statement that build your identity as someone of proper authority, someone who deserves to say what you just said.

Optimism

"I am very surprised by your refusal to grant a long-stay visa as requested employee to Mr. Angelo M. REYES, so that the case had been accepted in Paris, under the pretext that there is clearly a mismatch between the proposed use (commercial attache in raw materials for headgear) and training (Bachelor of Science) and Diploma in Hotel Management at Montreux in Switzerland.

In fact, his credentials are in any way because of his hiring in my company. This hiring follows the following facts, facts which were yet well presented in his case:
Mr. Reyes is the son of our main supplier of raw material for headgear: ELISA M. REYES. He is thus born and grew up around the family business, working there even a school vacation. Mrs. REYES and I speak English, but still encounter many problems of understanding. So I decided to hire his son to rule that the quality problems, and develops new products.

I have already fallen by one week my tour clients for next season, throughout France because his visa would be issued yesterday. I really want him to come with me to do with customers - very happy to know that he would accompany me - what was and what was wrong with them and see the new desired.
I remind you that the crisis is already at risk our business and we have therefore afford to suffer annoyance.

I am also President of the National Union of Manufacturers and Wholesalers Hat, flowers, feathers and accessories, and can tell you as such, I know the problems of the profession who were primarily to Chinese competition in finished hats. Mrs. Reyes gives me the exclusivity of its products and my clients - who are also my adherents - are delighted as the raw materials they sold me for the hat are not available in China."

"You know, I did the best I could for Angelo, but now I am not so optimist about him getting his visa.

Last Friday, I was reading the last letter I received from the authorities: His file was accepted but the last step was that the visa was given by the French Embassy in Manila. And we have so much unemployment here that they try not to have people coming from outside of the country.

Anyway I tried with sending my “pushy” letters to them and to the place in Nantes, but if this does not work, I am afraid that he will have to forget about the all story.

So, we never know, wait and see …. But on Tuesday if he does not have a good result, I am afraid that it will be dead. Only the Nantes place will decide.

Sorry about all of that, but as I told you, I tried all my best. And I feel very upset to deceive him."

Oh for the time being, when even one of the more influential and powerful person, not in Paris, but in France, the type who refuses Karl Lagerfeld and the like at her will, but will entertain Jean Paul Gaultier because of his kindness; will not succeed in helping me get that visa... then nothing else will. Or maybe Nicolas Sarkozy and that will cause an outrage. Well in fairness to her, clearly I know that she will want me to get my visa, and she has impressed me very well on how intense here tactics and ideas are to get me that visa.

Months and months of studying, preparing, time and effort, and this. Let's not be upset (Easy to say). But in the process I know I have learned a lot, not just French language but a huge aspect of living, and this is something I know I will look for on the brighter side of the events that passed by.

I'll let myself sob for a few moments over coffee, and move on to a back up plan immediately. I've used up much time already. Though I often feel that similar to New York, Paris battles to be the capital of the world, but the world is big when it comes to offering a wide array of choices, well this is what I've learnt when my Mom sent me away alone at a young age.

Who knows, a miracle is probably waiting to happen on Tuesday.

But then again, for the time being, I believe its better to let things go Mr Pessimistic's way... stay conservative, I mean. (ermm)

It'll produce more optimistic results at the end of the storm.